Why do i keep blowing leads ? Honestly I’ve asked myself this question alot last night and this morning i have been off of the adderall since season 1 . I thought because i went 11-5 in season 2 without Adderall i was good . But i actually had trouble focusing in both my playoff games . And in both my games to start season 3 but ima try not to blame the pills like a junky . So let’s take a further look .
I’ve been one of the most clutch players in PML this cycle . I’m sure I’m at the top of game winning drives but now 2 of my last 3 games I’ve had 3 possesion leads and lost . First i thought to myself the dolphins are just good but then it happened vs the bengals the exact same way . Early dominating defense with lurk Ints and all out smothering . and i been asking myself what is the difference of me lately vs me to start the cycle and i got it .
I come in games the exact same locked in as I’ve always did but there is one difference . The Ravens are now OD so i come out playing my game and i pretty much beat up on people and that creates me feeling complacent and not locked in for a stretch which leads to a comeback then when i need to focus back i can’t to the ability of my opponent who had been focused all game .
.Fun fact Vs the dolphins up 17-0 oweh my best defensive player got injured and i selected sub him out . That might’ve been the dumbest s*** ever . I had to start subbing him in during the 4th when i remember l***
I’ve had big leads before but now my big leads are in dominating fashion which makes me lose focus . Last night i was up 18 in the 4th and continued to throw deep balls on 1st 2nd and 3rd . I didn’t even notice cammy had switched to running cover 2 man virtually every play until i looked back at the game . That’s not even like me . Every person in PML goes to cover 2 man when they need stops and i didn’t even notice .
on defense i go from playing conservative to blitzing every play trying to get sacks and picks and stat chase vs making the person have a long drive like a good coach would do . I didn’t do this before but im creating these bad habits now because i think i got the powerful team to overcome and against good users that ain’t gone happen .
On offense because my defense dominates so much im never in an offensive rhythm . My last 3 games I’ve had my worst offensive performances of the cycle with a better offense and that is directly correlated to 3 of my most dominant defensive games .
In closing I think Something about my mind can focus up even through my ADHD ( I’ve been diagnosed for it twice once at 10 and again at 25 )i just have to make the
Conscious effort to focus on focusing . I’m going to make that effort going forward to play every play as if it’s 0-0 . I’m going to focus and not lose it because of the score or how “easy” the game feels . i used PML for more than then fun i use it to sharpen myself in everyday life i use it to challenge myself in an area. I used content work my writing muscle when I’m selling scripts . I use Practice and being a student of the game to work my muscle on getting better with whatever i choose to do and now i must work my focus muscle and show myself i don’t need the pills the pills need me . Will i succeed ? Find out next time on dragon ball Z .
